Inaugural Personal Log

Posted on Wednesday July 11th, 2018 @ 10:06pm by Ensign Thad Walker

This will be my first personal log on the Harbinger. Well, I guess it will be my first inaugural log ever. My counselor from the Ghent suggested I start keeping a log. Expressing one's personal feelings is liberating, and all that. I don't necessarily subscribe to the concept, but I promised I'd try it for a little while.

Serving on the Harbinger...or the H as I like to say...a big fan of monosyllabic words over multisyllabic not what I imagined. I don't know what I imagined, per se, but it wasn't this. The people here shall I put this delicately...oh fuck it, this is a personal log, isn't it? Well, they're uptight.

Everyone is anxious to prove themselves, all the time. And while I commend the ethic for its ability to drive excellence, there is a loss of the human factor.

There I go again, espousing on the human factor. I've said it before and I'll say it, the discipline of it, has lost the realization that we are trying to essentially control ourselves. We try to exert control over others, to keep order, to stay secure, but we can't empathize with what it's like for anyone to tell us what we can and cannot do.

Yes, yes. we're a military organization, but are we not also egalitarian? Do we not also offer equal opportunity? Yes, I realize it's a fine line. But goddammit, we have an obligation to walk it. Don't we?

Whatever, I'm beat. Thad out.